okay.
Before i start, i hope that you wont treat this post as "lame excuses".

alright.
1. you can say that I'm guilty, but not totally.
I knew myself that I have been "avoiding" you.
That's bcos that I know myself that I spent a lot time at scc during the hols,
and cos that if (most probably) you say/complain that I always spend my time at scc instead of going our with you people.
and I myself wont like it if you say so, and that's why I "avoided" you.
and as time passes, our distance got further.
I wanted to be closer to you but simply dont know how.

okay, it sounds a bit confusing.
But to be frank with you, sometimes, I dont really like the feeling when we were sharing about how we felt about each other.
And cos of this reason, when you asked me what your good and bad points were, I didnt think a lot cos i thought you'll feel the way too.

2. & 3. Well, it's perhaps that I'm too angry that I wrote everything down. hahs.

4. know what? I think that this matter is rather hard or should I say, takes a long time to explain.
And that's why i didnt reply you to explain about it.
Sorry yeah.

oh yeah.
For the day which you and pearlyn asked me out.
The "outing" with my scc friends were arranged the week before.
and you 2 just asked me on that day.
plus, 3 of the "scc friends" were hard to ask out.
I have not seen the 3 of them for like.. 5 to 6 years?


That's all i have to say.
I hope that this matter could be solved soon and we'll be friends again.
(: